...LOve......

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot,
who calls you back when you hang up on him,
who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat,
or will stay awake just to watch you sleep...

wait for the boy who kisses your forehead,
who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats,
who holds your hand in front of his friends,
who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on.
One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares
and how lucky his is to have you....
The one who turns to his friends and says, 'that's her.'

You fail to see the one who loves you standing right in front
as does she fail to see you love her in turn.
Don't wait to tell her because it might be to late then.

If he is the first thing you think of when you wake up,
the only thing you think of when you're awake,
and the last thing you think of before you go to bed,
then he is really somebody special.

Someday someone might come into your life
and love you the way you've always wanted.
If your someday was yesterday, learn.
If your someday is tomorrow, hope.
If your someday is today, cherish.

It's amazing the things you realize when you lose someone:
you get mad at yourself for not saying
the things you could've a million times,
you take for granted the days spent doing nothing
when you could have been with them.
Anyone can be taken, at any time in our lives,
but we always wait until they're gone to say
the things we never had the courage to before.

Letting go, even if it hurts,
doesn't mean you have to let go of everything.
You just have to let go of the person
and your feelings for her/him
but the memories will always be there
whether it's good or bad.
Because everytime you remember those memories,
it will always put a smile into your heart.
And be glad that once in your life this person
made you happy and put colors into your life
even if it's just for a while.

How to define love:
fall but do not stumble,
be constant
but not to persisitent,
share and never be unfair,
understand and try
not to demand,
hurt but never keep the pain.

Love is like a mountain,
hard to climb,
but once you get to the top
the view is beautiful.

When you say I'm beautiful
I say "yeah right,"
but what im really saying is "do you really think so?"

When you say good job i say "thanks"
but what Im really saying is "I love that you notice."

When you say we'll be together forever I say "I hope so"
but what im really saying is "I hope forever never ends."

When you say I love you I say "I love you too"
but what Im really saying is "never stop saying that."

When you say that I dont care I say "yes I do"
but what Im really saying is"I care for you more than you'll ever know."

You made me cry...
You tore me apart..
You left me in tears..
You've shattered my heart..
It wasn't your fault..
I guess it was me..
for love can't be forced..
Perhaps we weren't meant to be..
It still doesn't help..
now that i know..
Because for some reason..
my heart won't let go..
I've tried more than once..
to get over you..
but you make it so hard..
with cute things you do..
I thought love was joy..
but i've got nothing to gain..
just sorrows...
tears..
and a little more pain..
The day the pain started ..
reality came too..
It was the day i realized ........
I'LL NEVER BE WITH YOU.......

.................

it is weird... when look at others people....

before holiday, all of them have plan when to go back. only me, always and always dint think bout going back HOME.

it is hard.... when i sudently think bout home, think bout house....

because i really dunno my position at that PLACE, ya, that place we call HOME..

it is sad..... when feeling lonely, and, dun have anyone stand beside me......

frens, family, love....... even life.....

i m just a gal.....

a normal gal that no body care......

TrUSt?!

信任？！

坚持相信，不管任何层次的感情或关系终究需要建立在信任之上，不是吗？
但是，套句老话，现实是残酷的，总无法顺着自己的观点与立场走。太多太多东西是我们完全控制不到的。不，应该是，我们呀，连自己都控制不到了，不是吗？又如何所谓的控制其它事情呢？

因为面子，因为感情，因为东西，因为赌气，等等等。。。。
我们会做些违反自己原则的事情，说些违反自己内心的话。
瞧！是吧？自己都被自己背叛了！

当我告诉你我面对的，我经历的一切，那些话，不用我解释，你也应该知道是建立在咱们的友谊之上吧？但怎么。。。怎么你回过头就对着其他人大声喧哗呢？

这个道理我真的到现在还不明白，也无法释怀。

我享受朋友信任我，因为那是一种肯定，一种尊重。
我信任你，也基于我肯定你这个朋友。
可是，你的一举一动却给我反方向的纳闷与不解。

home....

家，应该是大家最熟悉的地方吧?
今天小妹子却突然发现，自己对这个地方已经觉得陌生了。
怎么了？为什么呢？不知道，不晓得。

妹子开始质疑，自己是否做错了？
家，真的终究是家吗？也许，是时候不再那么执著和逞强了吧。

我身边的另一个丫头。。

我身边的这丫头，她很傻。真的很傻。

丫头深深喜欢一个男孩，但这个男孩似乎对她的所有付出不为所动。丫头告诉自己，是时候放弃了。但，结果跟你们想的一样，怎么可能说放弃就放弃？

所以，丫头用了另一个办法，她不再是之前的她。

她选择了掩饰。一看见他，都避免再跟他说话。甚至连看都不敢再看他，因为丫头担心他会讨厌自己。

她把自己对他的牵挂，心疼和思念都收在心底，尽量不再对任何人诉说。

但是，当思念越来越浓的时候，她只有自己躲起来哭。
问她为什么哭，她只有淡淡的一句“因为我想念他”。
听了，不知觉心都痛起来。

丫头，要为自己加油哦，祝你幸福。

逞强的丫头。。

从上个星期大学假期开始，她就病了。

但逞强的她还硬说自己没事，坚持说不怕，别人回家乡，自己却依然留在槟岛。利用假期去打工赚钱。问她缺钱吗？是有一点。

终于，这个星期开学啦，屋友都回来了，结果自己还是病着的。在一番关心和痛骂之下，她终于肯去看医生了。无法相信的是，竟然连医生也骂她？？是，没错。医生说，现在是很敏感的时期，你居然病了一整个星期都不看医生？结论是，医生开了，H1N1的要给她。哈哈，她真是自作自受了。

好啦，健康的问题暂时搁一边去吧!

现在，另一个问题来了，她完全跟不上功课了。该怎么办呢？她自己也搞糊涂了。谁说高六是最难的？谁说上了大学就不必烦了？她觉得是废话！她怀念，真的好怀念高六的一切一切。哪怕是不好的？至少那时候的她确确实实的，很用心的过每一分钟。

现在？与其说用心，她倒觉得自己一直在颓废了。颓废了整整一年多。

真的想哭，但却哭不出来。
但愿她可以尽快的找回高六的自己。

如果你们看见她，记得为她加油，真的。。。

加油~~

了不起~~

对，感觉上这个女孩真了不起！
算一算，竟然三个月多没有回家了。。。
别以为她远离家乡，其实就住在北海而已！

一整年了，没有跟家人要过一分钱，没有跟家里再要求些什么。
自己想要的？
金钱？包包？吃好的？美美的？衣服？鞋子？
就自己去争取吧！

有时候会问问自己，真的不想家吗？
结果答案每次都不一样。

而很多时候，别人会问自己，为什么不回家？
结果真正的原因只有自己知道。

真的了不起吗？？
不知道。

其实，还蛮可悲的。

加油。